Let’s have a heart to heart…

Hey warrior,

You may look at me now and think I’m some super focused guy.

That i have my entire life plan put together...

But the Self-Improvement you’re reading about is the result of a year and a half of struggle.

You see, i was in one of the worst periods of my life.

(Actually, i think it was the worst period of my life.)

Ofcourse, I’m talking about lockdown.

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You know, that whole worldwide stay at home you can’t visit your grandma thing.

Well that thing pretty much ruined my life...

or atleast I thought it did.

It drove me into a dark depression, some days I couldn’t get out of bed and i let go of my daily routine.

I spent most of my time getting lost in the world of Instagram and wrote about all of my struggles as raps.

(I was actually growing my account as you know it now, so i guess it wasn’t all bad.)

I built up a small community with other writers many of which became my friends.

I put my: blood, sweat and tears into EVERY piece i wrote.

I gave it my all and then some.

I introduced written rap to the platform.

I even got real creative and niche with horror...

But despite all that effort - I wasn’t happy.

I was getting consumed by my trauma and i became obsessed with social gain and popularity.

Meanwhile, i hardly spoke to anyone in real life and locked myself in my room.

I was in uni at the time and lectures had gone online, it was then that i realised I didn’t want to waste my time there.

I knew i had a passion for writing, but this wasn’t the way towards doing something with it.

My bad mental health led me to fall behind in my studies and eventually i was withdrawn from my course.

When the doors to normal life opened again, i had come out of a rough breakup and had to get my first job.

I found a customer service role working from home booking vaccines.

(How ironic.)

Life wasn’t easy and i had to deal with a lot, but somewhere, somehow, i stumbled across a Self-Improvement video on TikTok that changed my life...

It was by Jordan Peterson, talking about taking responsibility for everything in your life and making your bed.

The guy gets a lot of 💩but he’s actually done so much for young guys like me.

And like that, something snapped in me.

I started reading books.

Working out consistently.

Taking course after course.

Journalling.

I felt brand new...

Like for once, I actually had a purpose.

All of a sudden I was:

Focused. Driven. Confident

Don’t get me wrong I’m in no way saying I’m where i wanna be or that I’m anyone to be looked up to...

(In fact, for the last two months i actually let myself go for a bit, but more on that in another edition of the Sami Show... i mean Self-Improve with yours truly.)

I still have so much i want to accomplish.

I’m yet to make the money i want to be making or live the life i want to be living...

But let me make one thing clear to you G...

No matter what you’re going through right now.

No matter how bad things may seem.

No matter how dark life is for you right now...

Mark my words - things WILL get better.

You were meant to accomplish great things.

So strive for nothing less than greatness.

God wants the best for you...

And I believe in you.

It’s about time you believed in yourself too.

Stay safe out here,

- Sami “went through the ringer” Miah x